Being part of IIUM

IIUM vs UiTM

I had commence my duty as Assistant Director on 1st October 2009.. after 2 weeks old in Johor Port Authority.. As Sir Jasmindar (iCIMB Sdn. Bhd.) once said.. "Never hope for green grass at the next field". After all, as I reported my duty as Administrative Officer (Research Officer), I can't stop this instinct telling me that I would be only 2 weeks there. Allah knows the best.. He test me to be far away and teach me to become nearer to HIM.

Exactly end of my 2nd week there, I received call from IIUM. I had decided to go because its nearer and it provide me pleasant environment since I am more familiar with the area and places. When my mom told me that I was called by UiTM to be a lecturer.. something in me, rejecting it.. but I decided to give a try.

Out of three candidates whom being interviewed, I am the one who being rejected. Obviously because they see my jobs histories.. Jumping from 1 place to another. How do you expect guys.. Money and secure job, I would prefer secure. I never had luck in UiTM cause I think HE knows that I would not able to deliver the lecture well if I am being placed under this Uni. (some people might know why..)

Next, when I step down my car, I pray to ALLAH, if this is the right place which could help me placed myself well, please let me away from any offer. However, few days back, I was so much pleased that I was called for an assessment at INTAN, Jalan Elmu to be evaluate for my one and only ambition I have and I steadfast to(since I was in Form 1)... you can guess right?

I am preparing myself.. not too prepare.. but trying to do the best. After 2 months old.. Hopefully after I manage to finish preparing proposal on how to enhance service delivery in IIUM, Centre for Postgraduate Studies, I would be cherished by a very good news from INTAN.. Credit to all my friends who make du'a for me.. special credit to Azua Hanim Mohd Said, Aizat Omar, Nor Azurah Muhamad Julaini, Nurulezza Idris, Baba. My lovely friend, Mama Yana.. I hope you still maintain with your current life and be much more better under HIS guidance.. I am overwhelmed with gratitute cause I was thankful that I found you guys..

Please other people who drop into this blog.. pray for me.. My new friends, Shamo and Iz, thanks for your own way of making mylife sweeter and brighter with your friendship.. Hope one day, we'll catch up in real life, InsyaAllah.

May this appreciation reached you guys in a best of health and iman by HIS graceful, InsyaAllah.

Family would be the prior.. Ma, Abah, adik2.. ijat, aji, ayi, nana, ewa and rezza.. Please do not stop praying for me.. May Allah bless you in whatever you are doing..

Love me, love me not.. I still love you guys..

When the uncertainty caught u by chance

Lately, I was too busy to share my life routine in this blog. This case should be published 2 weeks ago. I was eagerly checking on something in my friend handphone..

Suddenly, she received a message.. I decided not to open it. But she allowed me. I could see her face full of curiosity on who sent the sms. I was too shocked when it comes from people that we could treat as "the entity". This entity had just blew her from his life and now, they are still messaging as such nothing happened.

This sharing blog just for us to learn from experience and try not to spell the same wrong doing. I was a girl that never fall in love seriously towards man.. Of course not to woman.. I am straight.. Usually, I was caught in the situation where I am not able to fall in love and there were obstructions towards it.

Whenever I have the intention, there is something hurdle me. Since I was a kid, I decided to build up my own confident on myself. Any person will not able to bring me down. I always adjusting myself so that I will not feel such bad feelings: frustrated, sad towards people. Therefore, most of my life as I grew older, I try to avoid any human being who might cause destruction to mylife.

I had practicing this long time ago and I am capable enough to gone through the life. In fact, I felt that people who connected to me (in present) are the important things rather than people I knew after my age past 25.

I try my best to preserve my feeling from being hurt. Whenever there are someone out there get to know me. I will always put at least 50% trust on them. Why I am sharing this is because, my friend which I mentioned in the very beginning was a very good girl and this entity had openly take this naive girl into dilemma. Being introduced to each other for couple months. The sms put them into serious long distance relationship and it last few days after they met.

Until now, I just don't get the opportunity to have man talk with him. Perhaps one day, it might happen. People might differ from each other but she always claimed that she could handle it right. But to me, the true observation just telling me this all fake. Please, sometime we need intervention from third party and we have to listen to them.

Think wise and discuss it deliberately with people surround you. It might or might not help. but there is nothing wrong to give a shot on it.

When History Repeat Itself, What Should We Do?

Having friends surround us would be the most wonderful moments. Perhaps we will try our best to maintain the friendship. When history repeated, what should we do? It's about a friend of mine.. who caught in the dilemma between best friend and best buddy..

Few years ago, she got best friend.. She willing to share anything with her.. and they were too close till others curious on their friendship status.. She tried hard to keep the friendship long lasting.. Until they were tear apart by time and situation.. One being sent to Malacca and she was left to further study area Klang Valley.

They still close until one of them admitted that she was now in a relationship with one guy that her best friend knew. This Q (the girl whom already had a couple)was so excited bout the new relationship built. However her friend L, didn't like it as much as she did. There were few bad history that made L felt that way. They still kept in touch.. and the close friendship changed to normal friendship. Q decided to spend more time with the guys and other friend that she felt more happening and understanding than L.

Years by years, Q started to tighten the relationship by marrying with the same guy. The sad part is, L was the last to be invited to the wedding(verbally). Now, L came through almost the same situation. Her close friend tend to make a relationship with guy that she didn't like. L was really caught into dilemma.. If she deny the relationship, she might not get invited to the wedding (1 consequences). If she bless it with close heart, she might badly injured inside.

Until know L keep on emailing me, messaging me seeking for advice. Nothing much I can do. Be patient and hoping for the BEST. Good luck to L.. To me, she should not close to anyone after she was dumb and left for 2 times. Learn from history. Please!

Conclusion that can be made:
Although friendship is everything.. L should not too obsess with her friend. One day, they will left a black spot which u, yourself could not believe its done by ur best friend. Its true... Friendship can be deny by a single person called Man/Woman.

Think wise.. Search for many friends, do not pick one as best friend.. I also learn from mistake and learn much from this story..