I am returning his...

SubhanAllah...

Usaha menyatu dua hati atau petunjuk pada berakhirnya sebuah harapan? No one knows.. Sesungguhnya hanya DIA yang mengetahui sesuatu yang ghaib dan aku tidak mengetahui. Sekadar yang pasti, sebelum.. ketika dan selepas.. rasa itu masih sama.. the uneasy feeling.. nervous.. with percussion heartbeat whenever there's something related to him.. "Otuke??" I don't think the correct word.. It should be.. "Eolmana?.."

It's still me, that woman... How long? Till when? Allah knows the best..

Urgghh.. Some people recognize this unwell feeling heart walaupun sebaiknya berusaha sembunyikan.. At this age of 30, not for you to consider da sepatutnya.. But yet, you are the one who let him try.. That's me to be blamed.

There is argument, why I didn't take the opportunity to let him know my feeling? Cause I just don't have to.. He would understand if there is a chemistry within us, if we are made for each other, kan? I've played my part and if he shares the same feeling, the feeling will brings him back.

May be I'm not in a capacity of saying it out verbally.. let me share it through song.. The reason why I am not saying anything...

I'm still holding on you, that deep... Quoting:

I can't pretend these tears 

Aren't over flowing steadily 

I can't prevent this hurt from 

Almost overtaking me 

But I will stand and say goodbye 

For you'll never be mine 

Until you know the way it feels to fly 

If you should return to me

We truly were meant to be...

Yakinlah bahawa Allah itu perancang yang terbaik

InsyaAllah.. 

Love seems forbidden to you.. but why should you make it forbidden when there is someone willingly stand by your side 24/7? How can I say it to you on the hardness I've gone through? 

If only I can yell.. and punch you hard

why I am still enduring this hardness by the continuous fake love you've instilled in me.. 

Dear iena.. It's simple..

It's the love you have so much in you, for people surround you

this should be cherished and not to be blamed..