The Moment of Truth (HIM and HER)

September 6, 2010
Feeling of today:
Wake up early and my eyes and fingers just could not stop me from searching for something which is a handphone. She deleting all the messages either inbox or sent items. I can smell something is going on. They will have again a date on Wednesday. But after reluctant to bring me together, she at last agreed. It was after very big arguments between both of us. Tentatively, the date with him will be at Alamanda. Wanna join? Let’s come. After iftar, I will leave them to settle things out. To trash all the problems and resolved it.

Deep, deep in my heart, I can see that there will no solutions to the problem. Why? She still love him but the guy is too blur and parent pet which always fall into dilemma and unable to identify his feeling.
One of the messages proofs the feeling of the girl towards the guy. “Please sort things out before I love you again”. The guy knew how truth is her love towards him but, there is something hurdle him to make his decision which no one would not able to know. This secretive person has dragged the story into a complicated situation. He is nice but too poor in decision making. I think it was the heart and feeling problem. I was actually do not have guts to meet him personally, but the book titled “Bila Allah Menduga Kita” has really help things out. The sentence “Never has negative thinking towards HIM (ALLAH)” has made my heart calm and steady. If he is the person, I would just pray to Allah for HIS guidance.


This situation has taught me something. Love is Blind.. Haha.. the oldies statement is still available in this millennium year. It has brought me to my own experience. I never have partner since our relationship put into ends by none appropriate reasons to him but it’s really matter to me. I kept myself busy with works and being at IIUM has improved my ways of life by coloring it with Islamic values. I think it is too much for me when I failed twice in my relationship. Sitting all alone in darkness of the room made me thinking wisely. I could not be the factors that distract the smoothness of the relationship. May be the time has come for me to be independent. HE knows better while I am just a very tiny creation designed by HIM.