Inductions Course for MOHE staffs

Yesterday, I met my friend whom are having 2 weeks Induction course at one of the hotel located in the middle of the Kuala Lumpur City Center. They started the course on last Sunday. It seems like just three days relaxing from being a lecturer. I was at first so impressed with them. How they are too talented that make them being selected and appointed as government servant or in more specific, being a lecturer.

What makes them demoralize? At first, they were too excited to enhance their knowledge. Then, only three days out of 2 weeks, they started to mumbling, they started to complaining the talks were boring and not related to their works or scope of works. Last night, I was so disappointed with the government. Why they got the job where else much more out there dying and too devoted to be government servants. like me.. hahaha.. Why they usually easily got what they want without facing big hassle towards it? Why me, from degree trying hard to make myself active in all programs and obtained not too low marks which seems still capable for the post, not having a chance on it?

Some of them don't even know how to organize events, do not even like sports (like what they announced all the govt servant should be proactive). Sometimes, I thought they are better in English till make them suitable for lecturer post. But what I experienced, teaching Mathematic- this fellow, pronounced remainder (balance/baki) as reminder. How do their students gonna take it right?

A part from that, they always proud to be what they are. They were trained to held up high their head with biggest name tag with black background.. Yes!! I am the government officer..

Last night I have read something about how to preserves the quality. Citra Karya book emphasize on office landscaping whenever talk bout how to sustain good people perspective towards the organization. And I did read clause saying how important their attire. I could not deny this but.. but they should more focus on the service delivery because.. The too much attire might make public have more negative thinking if they failed to deliver the services well.

Its a reality and I think you guys might agreed with me. Government should try to eliminate negative perspective that always come out the public mind when they frustrated with the services. Orang Kerajaan biasalah melaram nombor satu.. kerja satu tak jalan. Its hurt my feeling not because of the words that came out of their mouth, but because I am one of the voters of recent govt.

Please resign and stop wasting public money. Paying salary to someone whom not suit for it. They sometime deliberately show off in public where else if we know them in details, they are just the clerk of the office. Spending times more on chit chatting and eating.. Adoi.. stop it..

I wonder which leader can be strict to his/her subordinate. Yes, we did not practicing circus organization type where implies zero defect method however, to be more liberal, we should by now thinking of enhancing the capabilities. Why should we kept on asking for contract Grade 44 services? Why don't we focusing on making the recent officer being the best.. This should flows correctly. Lets the generation continues.. Producing leaders not leader.

At last but not least, coming post would be details on types of organizations and which categories we want our organization fall in.

Caught in Dilemma

Most people wonder, whether their relationship or friendship might last forever..
Some of them proudly said they manage to make it happen..

A short story to be shared..

People walk in and out of our life.. We could not stop them to pass by our life.. its a true fact
which we unable to deny.. He comes out of sudden.. Never know who he is.. but he is expected to
be a new person to be consider now and later..

The hardest part is when you couldn't accept the existence.. He is not welcome but has to be consider. When comes to people life, we have to acknowledge people surround them.. not them by themselves.. Why he could not obey this simple rule? He won't be part of me.. that for sure.

Until now, I never admit his existence.. It might be the best choice among others, but not to me.. Hardest part is when people we love are not welcoming our thoughts and perceptions. All we can do is pray and hope for the best..

This usually happen to life.. Hurting others to make others happy.. If before, we try to treat this situation as experience to be learn, now we are acting towards what had happened before..

As referred to the previous situation, I will be the victim of the situation.. I hate him and he is actually the biggest HERO of the family.. nothing much I can do to eliminate him of the family..

In fact, I am not part of the family.. the lousy part to admit and state clearly.. that is the reason why me felt so isolated.. although we shared the same red blood.. we could not hide the truth and the power of the actual bloodline.

I am now hoping for HIM to decide the best for me.. not for them.. If He still the ultimate choice left, they didn't left me any choice.. Allah the mighty, with all the hope and truth and love, send me far from this. Only you know the fact how I could not accept this.. Hoping to be send far from people I love, for me to regain my soul and be more energetic and more independent..

How could I too stubborn to at least see his goodness and kindness? I try my best.. and still the childishness make me hate him so much.. I don't think he is the one.. but I am not HIM to decide what the best..

Let's talk bout other things later..